One thing I will miss tremendously is the sight of Jeremy on his computer, journaling, crafting his thoughts. Since the pain of his passing is still so fresh, I hesitate to explore too much but I know he left behind a treasure chest full of his deepest thoughts, wishes and dreams. I know that I can go there often, especially when I’m lonely and I will again have the ability to hear Jeremy’s voice, learn some new thought he had or gain a better understanding of his hopes and dreams for his life, our marriage and our children. It is an unbelievable gift to have these treasures. I know I will seek solace in the many, many documents he left behind.
While we were preparing his obituary today I couldn’t help but think that I was sure Jeremy had already thought of how he would want to be remembered. I’m sure he has processed it out at some point and it was somewhere hidden on his desktop. I haven’t been able to explore too much just yet, but I have found something he wrote in April 2005 about being an “ideal servant”. So bittersweet to read, knowing Jeremy most definitely was the ideal servant even unto his very last breath.
THE IDEAL SERVANT
1. The ideal servant is unquestioningly obedient to his lord in every area.
2. The ideal servant trusts implicitly in the judgement of his lord and does not question his lord’s decisions.
3. The ideal servant is always at the ready. He is always at his lord’s disposal to be used in whatever way his lord sees fit.
4. The ideal servant is humble and knows his place.
5. The ideal servant is uncomplaining in fulfilling his responsibilities.
6. The ideal servant knows his lord well, and shows initiative by continuously anticipating ways to be of service to his lord. He attunes himself to his master’s thoughts and wishes.
7. The ideal servant is honest in all his dealings.
8. The ideal servant makes his lord’s wishes his highest priority, never placing his own desires above his lord’s.
9. The ideal servant willingly sacrifices himself on behalf of his lord to the point of giving his life.
10. The ideal servant shows enthusiasm and dispatch in fulfilling his duties.
11. The ideal servant is grateful to his lord for his provisions and satisfied with his place.
12. The ideal servant assumes a mantle of his lord’s authority when fulfilling his lord’s duties, bearing his lord’s name with pride and confidence.
Luke 17:7: “And which of you, having a servant plowing or tending sheep, will say to him when he has come in from the field, ‘Come at once and sit down to eat’? But will he not rather say to him, ‘Prepare something for my supper, and gird yourself and serve me till I have eaten and drunk, and afterward you will eat and drink’? Does he thank that servant because he did the things that were commanded him? I think not. So likewise you, when you have done all those things which you are commanded, say, ‘We are unprofitable servants. We have done what was our duty to do.”